12-05-2008, Monday - The Worst Day ever in My Life

Yea, today was the worst day ever in my life. I always say that it's the bold relations that break soon. Yea, it has also come to my life. It's only due to my folly and perhaps, the most worst character of mine. It's true that sometimes I hate myself the most. Some people have told me that we shouldn't think so and should have self-esteem and all. Yea, I do have self-esteem for what all I am; but, I am aware of what I am not or what I am doing to others. And I think I am a self-refreshing personality.

Today, I dunno if it's worth publishing: one friend of mine told me that I've become a disturbance to her. She didn't tell so directly, but told that she becomes uncomfortable with me. I dunno what made her tell so. However, that relation broke. I swear that it's not mine who broke it. Still, she remains as ma best best best friend, but I am not so to her, as far as she's concerned. She says that I am no friend of her any more. Perhaps, this might be the day in which I cried a lot, believe me. I am a person who values relationships the most; even if certain people wouldn't assent to this; still, I am. I am hurt, rather I might have hurt that person. I dunno what to do...... The whole seems to be unhappy. Once somebody said: "The outer World is the reflection of your inner mind". This is the very sentence which I regard to be true.

Last day there happened another unhealthy incident in my college. College chairman posted a topic regarding "no college day this year" and apologized others for not conducting the college day, he being the chairman, and criticized the third years as "irresponsible junior senate members". This made the third years angry. Some of them posted some unhealthy posts in the topic. This led to an unfortunate event. I don't wanna write it here. However, what my opinion is, the third years should have taken it as a positive criticism from an elder brother. They should at least have thought that the seniors are saying good-bye to CEC soon, and it's not the time for a verbal or non-verbal fight. I anot blaming anybody. Leave it... it just happened. Let's all forget that.

The Topic is here:

http://www.orkut.com/CommMsgs.aspx?cmm=4679848&tid=2599311250477230877&start=1



Today Fazilettan (Pachikka) sent me a mail, regarding irregularities of SUMMIT '05 Funding, which he got from "Paul John", a fake name of a senior at that time sent to him after SUMMIT '05. Fazilettan was in the second year during SUMMIT '05.

07-05-2008, Wednesday - SUMMIT discussions going on

Today Arjun came to the hostel. Fact is that, I didn't sleep a wink last night. Arjun told me that Anoop K Jayan (A pass out buji of CEC) called him and instructed him to ask for Kottayam as venue for SUMMIT to the Principal. He had lots of reasons for that. But I and Sanoop were not agreeing to this, and Rahul too, I suppose.

At first, most of the students were for for Kottayam, but later our college itself was set as the venue. It was after a great sequence of discussion that we took such a decision. And we are about to submit the proposal too. We had told the Principal that we would submit the proposal on or before 5th of May. But it's already 7.


Arjun says that he's incapable of conveying us the reasons for choosing Kottayam as the venue, and Anoop K.J is coming to the college on 9th. Then we can have a discussion with him, he says. Later, Akhil reached here, but all others were about to leave. When told Akhil about this, he couldn't help bursting out. He said that he could manage Arjun and leave it to him. He says that we will indeed submit the proposal tomorrow itself. I dunno what's gonna happen.


Amal and Dawns had labs today. Amal had DE lab and Dawns had EC. BOth of them didn't get the output, but satisfactory. Mine is on 9th. Cerene mailed me today asking if I have started studying or not. She's ma lab mate at DE lab. I could but reply an emphatic "NO". I have not started so far.


Today Adheena mailed me some corrections to be made in SUMMIT web page. They are some silly grammatical errors. I wonder how I made such silly mistakes. How ever, thanks to her for reporting those errors.

I am very sleepy now. Lemme go to bed... Catch you all later...OK..

21-04-2008, Monday - COA Exam

For the first time ever in my life, I attended a public examination with below 20% preparation. Even if I don't study these days, I would be prepared for the exams, at least just to pass... Today that too didn't happen.... Amal also told me that the exam was very bad for him..... I thought that he would have prepared much. He wonders if he fails in the exam, even!!!!

Today Vasu asked me about the exams. Actually I dunno why I become not comfortable when speaking to him these days.... I just didn't hear him much; But, I couldn't help answering him..... You know, he's one of the persons whom I like most; but still........... he's to change a lot to fit the needs of his friends, I suppose.


Now, Rahul.... another guy like Vasu, whom I... Ok....ok........ I would better not to say it here... I think he's pretending to be like this... actually he's a soft guy with a soft heart... But, I doubt if he's pretending to be harsh in front of me...... I dunno....


I met Jofin today at Brothers'. He told me that the Principal would never assent to organize SUMMIT at Kottayam Mammen Mappilai Hall... He said, "Principal has told Biju Sir (our Senate adviser) that it's not possible to conduct it at Kottayam. Ask them to resubmit a detailed proposal with schedule and a detailed Committee list..... Then Sanoop asked him what the problem he pointed out; then Biju sir told that there's no other reason from the Principal, other than 'it's not possible to conduct SUMMIT '08 at Kottayam".

Now, I remember the last SUMMIT incidents.... Sam Mathew chetan, all students' dear friend and all, who was very polite and friendly to all, beloved by all..... he caught in an accident and the Almighty was not kind enough to him..... This happened on the way back from Mammen Mappilai Hall after the roll back of SUMMIT 2005. This was a shock to the entire college, I heard. This also would have been considered for the Principal to take such a decision this time, I presume.



At first of all discussions, I was not biased: I mean, I couldn't determine my choice where to conduct SUMMIT. Some people suggested our college itself and Kottayam some other. Later, I became for for Kottayam. But now, as I understand the limitations of space etc in Kottayam, I doubt if I am becoming for for the college.... How ever, leave it to the decisions of the Principal.....


Today also IPL.... they are really rocking..........


Nice Day..............